I’m more than a little happy, proud, and grateful right now.
It’s one of *those* times.
Sometimes all the weirdness lifts for a few minutes and the rewarding moments coalesce into one, big, fat lump of joy-like life substance. I almost want to say I’m feeling “humbled”, but that’s not actually what I’m feeling because I don’t think you can be humbled when you’re still kinda smug.
Can’t help it. Still kinda smug.
Also “humbled” is so internet last year.
HOLY EGO TRIP, BATBABES, MY LIFE IS DELIGHTFUL TO LIVE RIGHT NOW.
Also: DEAR EVERYONE THAT DIDN’T BELIEVE IN ME, YOU WERE WRONG.
If for no other reason, I’m just happy I’m still here. Alive.
But there are other reasons.
For one, my son is progressing like a champ in his first month back to school after two and a half years of unschooling – which was a legit, important, useful and, successful time where he/we both learned so much. But now I watch him joyfully bound out of the car on his lanky, teenaged legs, into the care of other adults (who are not me! I’m so tired!) everyday and I sigh a huge sigh of pure relief. I want him to have all of the opportunities. And as problematic as school can be for him, it isn’t in this new place. He says “Hey Mom, Turns out I *am* good at math!”
Secondly, I’m in love. LOVE LOVE.
So consider this my version of shouting from the rooftops because it is so on, okay?
Are you crying yet?
You totally don’t have to be. That might be weird or whatever. But I’m crying a little. The gratitude really runs deeper than deep right now.
And, because I would rather be a badass than cry, I got a sick new tattoo to commemorate some of this goodness. My first fully visible arm tattoo of a gorgeous evergreen tree. Deeply rooted, earthy stability has eluded me for most of my life. This tree feels really meaningful.
And generally, I love what I do for work. I get to work with some of the coolest, most interesting women ever. Laughing and being all real and trying to do things just a little better, a little simpler, a little softer.
Old me might wonder if I deserve it.
This version of me knows. It’s not about deserving. It’s about dedication.
And now the holidays are coming up. And usually, I feel loneliness and dread, and generally tiredness.
But this year, I’m excited.
I get to do holidays like a family this year.
Also, I get to run my Gravy + Grace course again! It was my favorite part of my work year last year. Being able to spend time with like-minded women, surviving the holiday season with ease and joy and, mostly, moderation and strong boundaries, was super rewarding and the feedback I got was fantastic.
“Meg’s groups are better than therapy because she doesn’t pathologize your quirks. She doesn’t even pathologize your pathologies, which is refreshing. What she does is encourage and facilitate the creative application of beauty and choicefulness, until there is no room left for the harmful shit that gets in your way.” – Rachael Rice
This year, I would love to get to know more of you. I would love to share my life excitement with you. (There’s plenty here to go around). I would love to see you fear less and free more.
So, if this year you:
DON’T WANT TO EAT AND DRINK ALL THE THINGS ONLY TO BE SAD THAT YOU DID?
WANT TO LAUGH MORE THAN CRY?
WANT TO LAUGH SO MUCH YOU CRY?
WANT A PLACE TO CRY?
WANT TO STOP TALKING ABOUT CRYING?
WANT TO CULTIVATE DEEP GRATITUDE AND DISCOVER MORE LIFE MOMENTS WHERE IT ALL JUST FEELS LIKE IT’S COMING TOGETHER AND YOU HAVE SPACE AND TIME TO ACTUALLY BE A CREATIVE, RATHER THAN EXHAUSTED, FORCE IN THE WORLD?
You should join us. It’s foundational health and moderation 101. It’s a place to learn that being healthy is often about doing less, being more, having a better time, being less of a taskmaster to yourself, and saying “no” to parties you don’t want to go to.
Mostly, it’s a great start to figuring out exactly where you are so you know where to go. And what better way to start out a new year?
Sometimes, we’re better together. We just are.
Please feel free to ask if you have any questions. Wondering if it’s right for you but feel like you need to hear my voice? Ask me! We can schedule a call to determine if it’s a good and valuable choice for you.
In related news, I’ve had some pretty great interviews published about my prison story and the justice system generally. It’s a topic and writing that I’m proud to voice. Please read if you have a chance.
“The most ludicrous scenes of ‘Orange is the New Black’ are the most realistic”: My time in federal prison (Part 1 conversation with author Sean Beaudoin of The Weeklings, picked up by Salon.com)
Welcome to the new Jim Crow: Michelle Alexander is right — our justice system doubles as a racial caste system (Part 2 conversation with author Sean Beaudoin of The Weeklings, picked up by Salon.com)
True Story: I was in Federal Prison (Part of the True Story series on Yes and Yes with Sarah Von Bargen)
Sending you all the love and all the grace… all the time.